Sunday, January 29, 2012

Here We Go

The previous week's rollercoaster ride managed to manifest physically...I spent most of this week with a sore throat, headache and body aches.  And a few more sleepless nights to boot.  My 5K prep running program took a little reprieve this week because I was sick and that bums me out.   I am hoping I can make myself fit it back in this week and get back into it.

This week, I worked what will likely be my last week at work.  If I can, we agreed to keep my hours open and see how we could make it work and just play it by ear.  In the meantime, we may be poor.  :( 

I also had my orientation at school on Tuesday and all I can say is "holy shit..."  Yes, I said holy shit.  It's my blog.  (I figure the very few under 13 year olds that I am facebook friends with aren't reading this blog anyway).  

Anyway, the amount of reading and work to do couldn't be more overwhelming.  They say to say goodbye to your family for the next 2 years, and I kept thinking, "really?"....that sounds so extreme.  But, I have a sneaky suspicion it might be true.  My biggest concern is how often we travel for cheer competitions.  Someone said...Well, looks like you won't be going to cheer competitions anymore.  Excuse me?  As if that would ever happen?

As I look over the massive amounts of material to read and want to cry, I make myself remember two years ago when I walked out of my first Chemistry class, came home and cried.  I called my very smart veterinary opthamologist  sister and begged her to help me and tutor me.  Of course, not thinking that she took all the crap about 30 years ago...like she would remember?  Turns out, even though I did still cry for a few more weeks, I pulled it together.  

I can do this.  I can do this.  

This morning, I am meeting with my study group for the first time.  There is so much reading due for this week, that the 5 of us have each taken a section to outline and then share with the others.  I think we have a good group....geez...how much trust does that take to rely on others for doing the work?  But there is no humanly way possible to read every single thing required.  Sigh...

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Just met with my study group.  We can all agree it's overwhelming.  I almost feel like it's the blind leading the blind, but I am sure after a few weeks we'll get into a groove and figure out how we can best make efficient use of our time to get this done.  We're talking...like 30 chapters over the next 2 weeks.  Holy hell....

Tomorrow is our first official day.  Super excited and scared to death.  
Wish me luck!


8 comments:

  1. Lori -- Look how far you have come since that day we had coffee at Starbucks and said, "I think I am going to look into the nursing program at COD." You are amazing and I know you will knock their socks off.

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  2. you are going to do great, I have no doubt. You always do everything you set your mind to. You are smart and disciplined and will be a wonderful nurse in no time! Time goes by so fast...I mean look how quickly the girls have gone from 3rd grade to 11th grade...lol.

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    1. Thanks Nina...means so much to me.
      And you're right...OMG, those girls. :)

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  3. You are going to rock it! Breath deep... one foot in front of the other- I know you can do it! 5K and nursing school. Believe in yourself and trust that you are where you are supposed to be when you are supposed to be there!
    Michele

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    1. Thank you so much Michele...I need all the positive feedback I can get. It's so daunting. I will come back and re-read this over and over again.. Thanks!

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